Searching for Full

“Gordon’s writing is a vulnerable and valiant invitation to sit with her on the cold tile as she pleads to a porcelain confessional for hope and healing. As a reader who once feared the insecurity and instability of my own bulimia, this memoir was a mirror that helped me see my hunger in a way I never have. Searching for Full is daring and sometimes devastating, but just as Paige brought us down to the floor beside her, she also holds our hand as we stand up—together.”—Bridey Thelen-Heidel, author of Bright Eyes

“Paige Gordon’s voice is fearless, incisive, and deeply moving. With remarkable candor, she invites readers into the lived reality of eating disorders: the private negotiations, the contradictions, the quiet suffering that so often remains unseen. Her writing is both intellectually sharp and profoundly human, illuminating the complex terrain of recovery with honesty and courage. This is the kind of book that helps people feel seen, understood, and less alone, and that alone makes it invaluable.”—Yvonne Castañeda, LICSW, author of Pork Belly Tacos with a Side of Anxiety

“Writing with crisp prose and a propulsive pace, Paige Gordon takes us through her twenty-two-year battle with bulimia. Gordon’s writing is raw and honest and although she doesn’t shy away from the darkness, she illuminates her suffering without painting herself as a victim. As the bulimia fades and the chatter silenced, she finds her voice. A voice she uses as a call to action to pursue research and expand treatment for those still suffering with bulimia.”—Andrea Leeb, USA Today best-selling author of Such A Pretty Picture

“It’s a privilege to peer into Paige’s life, memories she shares authentically and with some levity. She shows us the ways trauma and an eating disorder can warp the biggest parts of our lives, the determination that patients and loved ones currently need to find better solutions and care, and how our health care and medical research systems need to evolve so that eating disorders can be fully understood and met with effective and compassionate care.”—Jessica Scheer, CEO of the National Eating Disorders Association

“Searching for Full is a heartbreaking yet ultimately hopeful story of trauma and addiction packed with sardonic, insightful humor. One hopes that Gordon’s groundbreaking personal discovery and advocacy will add to the growing body of research about the potential use of GLP drugs for addiction and binge eating disorders. An important and timely read.”—Wendy B. Correa, author of My Pretty Baby

Paige Gordon is a writer, advocate, and women’s commissioner whose work lives at the intersection of writing and systemic disruption. Her passion is championing large-scale, biologically informed studies that reframe eating disorders as neurobiological conditions rather than moral failures. She serves on the board of directors of the National Eating Disorders Association (NEDA) and on multiple lived-experience advisory groups supporting research studies, grant initiatives, and patient-centered advocacy efforts. Paige lives in Central California with her partner, two children, and a codependent Saint Berdoodle named Marble.

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