I Spoke to You with Silence

“Despite the heavy content, these essays–painful, brutal, and beautiful–acknowledge and dignify the pain, loss, and resilience of queer Mormons, a strength I wish we didn’t need.”–Brittany Romanello, Dialogue

“A harrowing immersive experience for the reader… . I Spoke to You with Silence is an incredibly heartbreaking, important book for the contemporary LDS church and its policymakers, members, scholars, and students. It deserves, and I hope it attracts, a very wide readership.”–Gary James Bergera, Utah Historical Quarterly

“The writers’ courage in speaking frankly about their experiences of Mormonism makes this a good text for anyone who seeks to throw off the shackles of the gender binary. Highly recommended for general readers of gender studies and religious studies. This book deserves a broad readership.”–Library Journal

“A beautiful, haunting, hopeful, and absolutely necessary book… . I Spoke to You with Silence emphatically demonstrates that there is a richness of queer Mormon experiences waiting to be heard – I hope that we have the ears to hear them.”–Conor Hilton, Association for Mormon Letters

“This poignant, at times heartbreaking book is a testament to the resilience of LGBTQ Mormons. Focusing particularly on the little-heard stories of gay, bi/pansexual, asexual women and trans, nonbinary people, and including and giving space for people of color to share their experiences at the intersection of racism and heterosexism, this book gives people space to tell their stories. Some chronicle a lifetime struggle. Others focus on a poignant moment. It is a beautiful and important work of personal narrative and storytelling.”–Dawne Moon, author of God, Sex, and Politics: Homosexuality and Everyday Theologies

“The story of modern Mormonism cannot be told without considering the queer experience, which in turn can only be understood through listening to the tradition’s previously marginalized voices. Collected here are some of the most poignant and powerful essays ever composed by LGBTQ+ Mormons as they plumb the depths of their faith and sexuality. Only after reading this volume can the broader picture of the ‘American Religion’ come into view.”–Benjamin E. Park, author of Kingdom of Nauvoo: The Rise and Fall of a Religious Empire on the American Frontier

Kerry Spencer Pray teaches writing at Stevenson University in Owings Mills, Maryland. Mormon by birth, she taught at Brigham Young University for fourteen years and spent nearly twenty years in a mixed-orientation marriage. She lives with and coparents children with her wife and gay ex-husband.

Jenn Lee Smith is founder of Bewilder Films, which focuses on stories of under-represented people. Raised an active member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, she began her producing career with stories at the intersection of religion and sexual/gender orientation and has since collaborated on BIPOC and environmental films. She lives in California with her husband, children, and dog.