I'll Tell You When I'm Home

“A beautiful and intimate memoir of a life in the embrace of stories, Alyan weaves the fine threads of torn and fragmented lives into an irresistible, intergenerational tapestry. I was spellbound from the first page.” –Naomi Klein, author of Doppelganger

“A roaring cyclone of memory and imagination and harrowing tribulation. Surrogacy as metaphor for exile. Exile not as a dream for a better life, but as concession, a begrudging necessity. Gaza, San Miguel, Beirut, New York, Damascus–traveling with Alyan’s prose is a thrill. I’ll Tell You When I’m Home feels as rich and supersaturated as contemporary consciousness itself–I can’t stop talking about it.” –Kaveh Akbar, author of Martyr!

“In this vibrant, poetic memoir, Alyan unpacks her difficult journey to motherhood and many facets of her past… The in-betweenness of Alyan’s existence and the particular challenges and legacies of her diaspora identity combine with a writer’s continual remaking of herself. A poignant exploration of suffering and wonder and a portrait of a woman on the cusp of bringing a new life to her world.” –Booklist

“A powerful, magnificently haunting memoir from a writer I always want to read. It’s great luck to live in a time when Hala Alyan is writing. Get ready to be astonished.” –R. O. Kwon, author of Exhibit

“Gorgeously written and compelling, I’ll Tell You When I’m Home connects the threads of personal and family histories as its author prepares for motherhood. Hala Alyan is a writer of astounding talent.” –Lisa Ko, author of Memory Piece

“This memoir of pregnancy loss and surrogacy is frantic, intimate, brutal, tender and beautiful. Over the arc of a pregnancy by surrogate, the poet offers up her fragmented heartbreak and kaleidoscopic life. I kept gasping, wanting to close in around Hala, to protect her across time and space from the sharp edges of mother-need inside a body that cannot birth a living baby. She wants her readers in the wound with her, inside the stories that don’t get told enough, inside the body-mind of a displaced woman struggling to create something bigger than herself. Brilliant.” –adrienne maree brown, author of Loving Corrections

“Hala Alyan writes with sinew and tender force as she masterfully braids the delicate filaments that make a self–body, home, labor, loss–in such a way that the reader can never again disentangle them. This book is a gift, an offering of abundant beauty, full of deep insight into the intricacies of motherhood.” –Alexandra Kleeman, author of You Too Can Have a Body Like Mine

“An exquisitely written and unforgettable memoir about what it means to live with the violence and theft of exile and one woman’s devotion to restoring her daughter’s inheritance through the power of narrative.” –Nadia Owusu, author of Aftershocks

“An intimate experience… [and] emotion-packed exploration of the impact of loss on identity.” –Kirkus Reviews “A lyrical and uncompromising personal history.” –Publishers Weekly

Hala Alyan is the author of the novels Salt Houses–winner of the Dayton Literary Peace Prize and the Arab American Book Award, and a finalist for the Chautauqua Prize–and The Arsonists’ City, a finalist for the Aspen Words Literary Prize. She is also the author of five highly acclaimed collections of poetry, including The Twenty-Ninth Year and The Moon That Turns You Back. Her work has been published by The New Yorker, The Academy of American Poets, The New York Times, The Guardian, and Guernica. She lives in Brooklyn with her family, where she works as a clinical psychologist and professor at New York University.