The Way I Am Now

“I could not put it down–a moving and powerful portrayal of trauma, love, and hope.”–Alyssa Sheinmel, New York Times bestselling author of A Danger to Herself and Others“Readers who were captivated by Amber Smith’s heartbreaking debut, The Way I Used To Be, will no doubt remember Eden and Josh, whose love story never had a real chance to take shape. The Way I Am Now is an absolute stunner of a sequel: a brave, complex journey of healing, relationships, and life after trauma. Amber Smith writes with unparalleled emotional nuance, and in her very capable hands, Eden and Josh are able to navigate new terrain both together and as individuals. A tender, vulnerable, and hopeful book that probes the intricate depths of human emotion.”–Laurie Elizabeth Flynn, author of The Girls Are All So Nice Here and All Eyes on Her“The Way I Am Now is powerful read from Amber Smith.”–Culturess“Amber Smith centers the complex healing process and evolution of a promising relationship in The Way I Am Now.”–Publishers Weekly“Highlights with painful honesty the process of moving forward following trauma.”–Kirkus“Amber Smith has a way of holding our hearts so even the hardest things seem possible. With The Way I Am Now, she shows us that the potential of love and healing, no matter how messy, are already, and always, inside us.”–Amy Reed, author of The Nowhere Girls“A magnificent and tenderly crafted novel that brings Eden’s journey to a fitting and honest close. Smith’s sequel is an empathetic and unflinching look at the journey through trauma to a place of healing and hope.”–Kathleen Glasgow, #1 New York Times bestselling author of Girl in Pieces and The Agathas

Amber Smith is the New York Times, USA TODAY, and internationally bestselling author of the young adult novels The Way I Used to Be, The Last to Let Go, Something Like Gravity, and The Way I Am Now. An advocate for increased awareness of gendered violence and LGBTQIA+ equality, she writes in the hope that her books can help foster change and spark dialogue. She lives in Ithaca, New York, with her wife and coauthor, Sam Gellar, and their ever-growing family of rescued dogs and cats.