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Secrets and Lies: Surviving the Truths That Change Our Lives

Jane Isay

ISBN: 9780307742247
Secrets and Lies: Surviving the Truths That Change Our Lives
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Publisher Description

Secrets, large and small, are a fact of human life. This book explores the impact of keeping secrets and the power of truth. Secrets can damage our sense of self and our relationships. Even so, Jane Isay has found, people survive learning the most disturbing facts that have been hidden from them. And secret keepers are relieved when they finally reveal themselves-even the things they are ashamed of-to the people they care about. Much depends, Isay writes, on the way of telling and the way of hearing.

Jane Isay was both a secret finder and a secret keeper. After fifteen years of marriage her husband admitted he was gay, but together they decided to keep it a secret for the sake of their two sons. Building on her personal experience, sixty intimate interviews, and extensive research into the psychology of secrets, Isay shows how the pain of secrets can be lightened by full disclosure, genuine apology, and time. Sometimes the truth sunders relationships, but often it saves them.

Powered by detailed stories and Isay's compassionate analysis, Secrets and Lies reveals how universal secrets are in families. The big ones-affairs, homosexuality, parentage, suicide, abuse, hidden siblings-can be ruinous at first, but the effects need not last forever, and Isay shows us what makes the difference. With specific guidelines for those who keep secrets and those who find them out, Isay's book reveals the art of surviving a secret.

Author Biography

Jane Isay has been an editor for over forty years. She discovered Mary Pipher's "Reviving Ophelia," commissioned Patricia O'Connor's bestselling "Woe Is I" and Rachel Simmons' "Odd Girl Out," and edited such nonfiction classics as "Praying for Sheetrock" and "Friday Night Lights." She lives in New York City, not too far from her grown children and grandchild.


Praise for Secrets and Lies

"This masterful and psychologically sophisticated book takes us into the heart of darkness, family secrets, and shows that they can and must be faced. Isay's ideas are fresh, provocative and ultimately deeply healing. Her stories glitter with authenticity." --Mary Pipher, author of The Green Boat and Reviving Ophelia "Who better to guide us through the anatomy of betrayal and its aftershocks than Isay, who has lived both sides of a public, family-shattering secret? Isay introduces us to a dazzling array of characters whose lives were fractured by painful revelations. Most important, she offers tough love advice about how to make sense of the unthinkable and move on. Anyone who has ever been harmed by a secret will find solace in Isay's compassionate, laser-sharp storytelling." --Rachel Simmons, author of Odd Girl Out

"The truths that Jane Isay illustrates with compassion and delicacy about family relationships, ring true for communities and institutions as well: everyone involved is hurt by deceiving oneself and others, but truth can lead to healing." --Mary Catherine Bateson, author of Composing a Further Life: The Age of Active Wisdom

"A wise, brave, and gripping book about the stories families hide from one another, Secrets and Lies instructs us in the many important ways that even painful truths can set us free." --Judith Viorst, author of Necessary Losses

"Jane Isay starts by baring some secrets of her own--which is only fair, since this wonderful book abounds with stories of other people's secrets that are closely-guarded and, when revealed, deeply unsettling. She explores the full range of secrets people keep--using tricks ranging from well-intended white lies to self-serving and even vicious deceptions--and the full range of reactions when you find out you've been lied to for years. 'You don't know what you don't see until you are forced to see it, ' Isay writes. A fascinating book." --Robin Marantz Henig, Contributing Writer, The New York Times Magazine

"Jane Isay has once again brought her unflinching honesty, searing insight and open heart to corners of family dynamics that most of us avoid. In Secrets and Lies Isay examines the tangled webs we weave and the pain they inflict on innocents who become ensnared. With wisdom and warmth, she reassures us that facing the truth is possible, and that the time to do it is now." --Dr. Ira Byock, physician and author of Dying Well, The Four Things That Matter Most, and The Best Care Possible

"As a family therapist for over three decades I recognize close-to-the-bone truth when I see it. So, if you or someone you know needs to be encouraged to take that bravest of steps toward the truth, get this page-turning book. Jane Isay is a gifted story teller with the soul of a poet and the wisdom of a master teacher. Secrets and Lies is not only about betrayal, it is about courage, the kind all of us need to negotiate the hidden currents and sudden riptides of life." --Dr. Ron Taffel, author of Childhood Unbound

"Whether we are Finders or Keepers of secrets (or both), Jane Isay vividly shows how secrets and lies render the very fabric of our lives shot through with a corrupting thread of untruth. To move ahead, she argues, we must unravel these tangled threads and rework the tapestry of our inner worlds and intimate relationships that dishonesty and dissembling has distorted. Using her own riveting personal story of her husband's coming out as gay and their mutual decision not to tell the children as a jumping-off point, Isay also engagingly captures secrets and lies in the lives of others through in-depth interviews. Finding and keeping our own truths, Isay argues, leads to the honesty and authenticity that makes us whole and connects us to others." --Susan C. Vaughan, M.D., author of The Talking Cure

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Praise for Secrets and Lies "This masterful and psychologically sophisticated book takes us into the heart of darkness, family secrets, and shows that they can and must be faced. Isay''s ideas are fresh, provocative and ultimately deeply healing. Her stories glitter with authenticity." --Mary Pipher, author of The Green Boat and Reviving Ophelia

Promotional "Headline"

By the author of Walking on Eggshells , a compellingly readable journey into the realm of family secrets, offering lessons and insights for those who are hiding the truth and those who discover what has long been hidden.

Description for Reading Group Guide

The questions and information presented in this guide are intended to enhance your discussion of Jane Isay's Secrets and Lies .

Discussion Question for Reading Group Guide

  1. Jane Isay begins Secrets and Lies with her own story. Do you sympathize with her and/or

Excerpt from Book

1 The Birth Bombshell When a significant secret is revealed, only the whole truth will restore trust Each one of us has our own tailor-made book of Genesis. Who am I? Where do I come from? What is my destiny? The family stories that answer these questions form the bedrock of our lives, the basis of our identity. What happens when the revelation of a long-kept secret explodes that story in our faces? It feels like London in the Blitz. The bombs are falling on our sense of self, and we have nowhere to hide. We have to begin all over again. We have to rethink everything, fitting our experiences and all the explanations for who we are into a new story. We ask ourselves: How could the people I trusted most deceive me all my life? What else are they hiding? It is hard to regain trust in parents who never told you that you were adopted. It takes mental gymnastics to get your head straight when you learn that your mother is your aunt and your cousin is your half sister. The world spins when your mother, who told you she was a widow, informs you that your father is not as dead as she had indicated. The people in this chapter have struggled to come to terms with a most threatening secret: the truth about their parentage. First, they experience the secret for what it is--a profound betrayal. They become suspicious of the motives of the people who lied to them all their lives. Then they harness their anger and energy into searching for the truth. Only knowing the facts will help them create a new identity. For that is another source of anger and anxiety: Their life story has evaporated. We humans have the unique ability to narrate our experiences--to ourselves. We are constantly processing and shaping the information that comes to our brains from our bodies and our senses. We organize all that input into narratives, which form the foundation of our identity. Some of them are about the past, others are about the present, and we use that same technique to imagine the future. Making these narratives is one of the brain''s mechanisms to promote survival. In this way we can massage the chaos of our experience and transform it into our stories. This continuous conversation, much of which is unconscious, allows us to eliminate dangerous options. It helps us imagine survival strategies and even make good gambling decisions. These narratives are not immutable--they change as our experiences change--but they are fundamental. So when you learn some fact that upsets your founding story, anger, anxiety, and pain are the common reactions. That makes sense. You have to reassemble your identity in a way that accounts for the new information. In the following pages, you will read about three women who discovered that they weren''t who they thought they were. You will also read about their search for their origins. All three found the truth, eventually. How they succeeded or failed in creating a narrative that allowed them to live with the people who lied to them is at the heart of this chapter. Naomi, for whom everything that could go wrong did go wrong, suffers not only from the revelation of her origins but also from her parents'' inability to respond to her pain in a way she can tolerate. It''s bad enough to discover that you have been deceived all your life, but if your questions are met with silence and you can''t fathom the reason for the deception, the secret becomes radioactive. In the absence of an explanation from her parents, Naomi created a painful and damaging narrative of her own that warped her life. The Anonymous Letter Naomi was writing her dissertation, deeply engaged in the subject and determined to finish it. She was twenty-eight and ready to get on with her career. One day when she came home from the library she found a letter with no return address. She opened it with curiosity. It contained a bombshell: "You don''t know me, but I think you should know, I''m a member of your birth mother''s family, and you were adopted, and you should know for health reasons." It ended with a promise: "I won''t contact you again." Naomi was shocked. This made no sense. She couldn''t be adopted. Nobody had ever mentioned it, and she had two younger siblings, so her mother was not infertile. Naomi and her husband were outraged. When a bombshell such as this lands, two questions rise to the surface: How could this be true? Why did they lie to me? Naomi needed answers to both questions, and she needed them right away. Her parents had never been communicative--they were too self-involved, she thought. She knew she needed to be clever in pinning them down. So she called her brother, a lawyer, and together they concocted the perfect question: "How come you never told me I was adopted?" No room for wiggling. Her mother was home, and her father was at the office, so they divided up the calls and each sibling phoned a parent. Both parents gave the same response: "I can''t talk now. I have to go." Their stonewalling was painful for Naomi. Most of us react to shocking news with panic. The adrenaline rush and the anxiety make us restless, and waiting for answers can be agonizing. Think how time slows down when you await pathology results after a biopsy. Every minute seems like a day. This was true for Naomi and her husband. They were desperate for an immediate response and became increasingly furious as the day wore on. They sat by the telephone all day, from two in the afternoon until ten that evening, waiting to hear from her parents. Finally, when the phone rang, Naomi told her husband to pick it up. She didn''t think she could speak to either of them. Her father, a professor and the designated bringer of hard news, spoke. "How''s our girl?" "Not great." "I have a class tomorrow, so can we talk on the weekend?" That was not a satisfactory reply. Naomi''s parents lived only an hour''s drive away, and if they had responded earlier in the evening they could have driven right over to see Naomi and her husband. Being told to wait until the weekend felt like an insult. "Too late," her husband said. "You don''t have any more chances now." He hung up. Her parents didn''t try to reach Naomi again. They didn''t call and say how sorry they were that she was hurt and how much they wanted to explain it all. They let it go. And Naomi let them go. Her response to their delay and subsequent silence was to separate from them. If these people didn''t care enough to help her when she needed it, then she wasn''t their daughter in any way, and they weren''t her family anymore. They didn''t speak for years. She started referring to them as "the Bernsteins." The initial bombshell fractured Naomi''s sense of the world, but without help from the people she had known as her parents, she reassembled the pieces in a way that made her story more painful. Their lackadaisical response to the crisis confirmed everything she had long sensed about her place in the family. "I have a class tomorrow, so can we talk on the weekend?" cast in stone the story of her life as a second-class child. The delay felt familiar. It was how her parents always treated her. Naomi felt that she never came first when she needed their affection and attention. They never had time for her, she thought, and their tepid response to her crisis was just another example of their selfishness and lack of concern. Everything that she had suffered in the family now made excruciating sense to her. Naomi, as the oldest child with a younger brother and sister, was given heavy responsibilities for the care of her siblings and only glancing attention from her parents. She resented this, but chalked it up to birth order. Even when she went off to college, Naomi felt neglected. During her freshman year her little sister, with whom she did not get along at the time, was having an emotional crisis. Naomi''s mother called and told her not to come home for spring vacation. Her presence would irritate her sister. Naomi objected. What was she supposed to do for those ten days, and where was she supposed to go? How could her mother ask this of her? "You give the most to the child who needs it," was her mother''s response. On the day she received the anonymous letter, Naomi needed the "most" from her parents, and they withheld it. So the revelation that she was adopted seemed to explain everything that had ever bothered her. Her serial rejections by her parents and their lack of attention suddenly made sense. She was not their biological child, so she didn''t deserve first-class consideration. Naomi''s new story was about the adopted child who never counted as much as the biological children. Other fragments of her life came together to create a new picture. She remembered seeing a family snapshot taken at her college graduation and thinking, "Look at our ears. They are all alike--I must be a member of this family even though it doesn''t feel like it." So she had always felt like an outsider. Naomi decided to check her own judgment. "I had one friend left who knew me from high school who knew my family very well." She contacted her and asked, "Did they treat me differently?" "Yes." "Birth order?" "No." Naomi''s revised life story was taking shape. Her parents didn''t love her as much as they loved her sister and brother. They didn''t care about her feelings. Her personality was different from the rest of the family, and she got on her siblings'' nerves. She was adopted--that''s why. Why didn''t the Bernsteins rush over to her house the day of the letter, and why did they never try to make contact? She was adopted--that''s why. This news va

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Jane Isay
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Anchor Books
Surviving the Truths That Change Our Lives
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